Surviving a Saturn Opposition

Is there anyone out there that knows what surviving a Saturn Opposition really entails?  Well, let me tell ya...It's harder than that time I accidentally hit a family of skunks in my new car, harder than raising kids, and 10x harder than a forty eight hour yoga class of warrior poses being taught by your most cruel enemy, (and don't act like you have never had one!)  That should give you some idea of what my past two years has been like.   Like it wasn't hard enough just turning forty. 

     I have emerged from this madness composed and whole, though different and braver than I've ever been.  This blog quote says it perfectly because at this point in my life... anything is possible, maybe even probable as I tilt my head and kick up my lip while writing this.

     When the transiting Saturn dances with your natal Saturn it's a promise that you will learn something, face something or just out and out be forced to look into the mirror of your karma, eyes wide open.  Who in the hell wants to ever do this?  What happened to the past being the past?  Well, no it actually isn't like all the self help books and therapist like to portray  There's no such thing as forgetting where Saturn is concerned.  Saturn likes to layer your life with one experience after another but never dissolving any of them.  What you end up with at forty is a multi-dimentional personality disorder that even Edgar Cayce couldn't spiritualize.   Then, "Bam!" you get the whole you at once and your like, WTF just happened!?!?!  I wish I could be nicer about it but being honest is the best policy.

     Thank goodness that when rough enough things came my way in the onset of my life, I chose to forgive immediately.  Thank goodness when I was forced into decisions,  it was God that led me through them.  And THANK GOD, I spent more time depending on him rather than running from him.  It was his GRACE that made my opposition somewhat bearable.

     Now on the other side of it, it's funny.  It's laughable and ironic some of the things down my roads.  Then I wonder...would I really be able to laugh if I had not faced it all?  Probably not, I think to myself.  As this opposition ended,  I became lighter in spirit, more laid back and accepting of people and all their crazy decisions.  I am not bothered by others perceptions of me or my life.  As youth is fading from my physical presence here on this earth, I find a little sarcastic humor and relief that hey, your next, lol  We'll see how you and you and you...face this mighty giant called, "Your life!"

     End result is...yes I'm a little more sarcastically fun, a little less tolerant of games and facades, a little happier in my body...I've released, purged, vomited all my choices and cleansed myself from all unrighteous doings finding me, at the bottom of the pile.  Pushing my way up like fighting for air at the bottom of the sea.  Half way through my life, Saturn says...  Make it good and kind and full of adventure and hey, don't worry so much about the outcomes, this half we go in wisdom.   That's just what I plan to do, come rain or shine.  So if your going through a Saturn anything... be sure to have the alone time you need to face your demons.  Be sure to not piss them off as well, ha ha.
cheers!

Somebody has to say it..

Anyone that knows me well knows I'm dealing with a major Saturn opposition Saturn transit right now. (Sarcasm) anyone that doesn't like sarcasm should just go read something else because this post is full of it centered around all my life's lessons.  May the courageous in heart carry on...

A Saturn opposition is by far one of the hardest transits that an able mind and body can brave in this lifetime.  It's the mid-life crisis where you look around at how you've always done things and it just pisses you off.  You start to see in your early 40's what you did a certain way for 40 years was insane and got you absolutely no where doing it.  Everything you feared or danced around for others just becomes out and out bullshit at this point.  The best part is you can't control the change that's coming.  Yet, whatever comes is needed change and sets the course for the rest of your life.  Sort of a pause if you will to stop climbing, doing and being and assess your life situations, relationships and any other thing that Saturn decides to shift.  BTW, this will go on for about (2) years give or take.  

So, before this opposition I was the doer, the sacrificer, the martyred and the one that made sure everybody else was ok.  Oh I would fight for a cause but never my own.  So I have jotted down some quotes that just pop in my head as I free think about where I am today in my head and heart.  I'm sure something amazingly fabulous will be birthed at the end of these two years.  (Say your prayers for me plz)

It's not that I don't like kids, it's just that I'm "over" kids.  Next obsession please....

When someone assumes leaving my life out of some petty argument or jealousy is a punishment..."where is the logic in that?"  Trash that takes itself out???  Think about it...

She turned out to be fierce, speak her truth and has a mind of her own. 

Sure life is hard, as long as your looking at it according to the needs of everyone around you more than your own dreams.  Then it's fucking hard!!!!

I never thought I'd be ok without a man, without my kids and without my family.  Now there is an assurance that the sun will shine again and I will create a new.  There will come a tomorrow with completely new characters to dance on my stage. 

People will always hate you for the truth no matter how you say it because life says everything is supposed to be hidden and squashed...never addressed. 

If all your enemies, haters and evil doers in your life suddenly ended up in the same town, would that be a blessing or a curse?  I say blessing because like attracts like and good character doesn't hate someone so fabulous! 

I don't travel because I like spending money.  I travel because I like not thinking about it for a week.  "Lay that shit down!"

At her worst, life-changing moment full of betrayal and chaos she was the calmest she'd ever been.  Put on her lipstick and turned to flick the music up!

I used to carry regrets around in my pocket.  They seemed to define me.  Now they are against my religion.  I simply don't believe in them. 

There is so much freedom in making up my own mind about a thing without the influence of any other thing or person. 

I leave you with this..." Friends that sparkle are all that's allowed here and kuddos to my husband who's left standing with me when this is all said and done!".